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hp that take photos good
Aloow to have Cats
Allow to havePups
8 a1 o level cert
Love
Ideas
PurPose
Happy family
Good health
Peace and happiness
PS : bottom most important ones tt i wish for my bd... If you can gimme this... i thank you! Upper less important
Thursday, September 28, 2006
The prelims is finally over. I kinda hate to deal with exam periods. Besides the self-critical feeling piling up, I still need to face ... Many negative things. Prelims is indeed a waste of time. Days flew away... Ha
Being a introvert ideal seeker, ( meaning I'm selfcritcal high and unrealistic in expectation for myself, easily taken advantage of due to inexpressiveness, seen as aloof although I DO feel like other fellow human beings) Exam stretches me... Being too self absorbed, I missed out. I tried not to think about things but I just cant. My mind wander off... Its like when the paper isnt 100 marks i just think i did very badly. more questions i dont know how to do the more i doubt my own intelligence and future. I'm such a pathetic.
Part of me is a security seeker ( means want stablilty and warm peace and happy atmosphere.) What de the exams do? it create a tension... i dont like competition but this is not acceptable in the society... Here, you compete, you win or you lose... So i thought the at most i could do is to JUST know whether if my standard stays! For example : im usually around ABCDE's mark range if i had fallen out of this range of people, I got worse... isnt it like that?
After the exams things never got better for some time...
Maybe im expecting too much. It's fair this way? - you dont trust me i dont need to trust you either. Then who started this trusting thing? dunno dumb or clever c in the future. I tried! And i dunno
anyway just one more questions tt i need answers, suppose your friend is a good friend in times of pleasure and fun, but when danger comes do friends get impatient? Or what do they do? I dunno. i dunno what is the right view in fellow mankind eyes. I thought perhaps the trust and the 'looking up to you' is not adequately present.
Vivian said that I'm very act Chen mo... no lo, i got so much to think about it's hard.
feeling small at 6:05 AM
